It's a great thing to think about because who's life isn't messy?!
I've been working on my perspective lately. To look past my messes and unveil the beauty God is working on.
I'm feeling more content lately.
Several years ago I felt very alone and lost in life. I felt like no one could see life from my point of view, or didn't care to try, and I even felt like God had abandoned me; or else I had ruined my chances with Him.
I remember feeling hopeless and confused and I felt like I wouldn't be able to turn my life around. I was certain even my family members wouldn't give me a second chance or ever be able to look past my weaknesses. I had almost just accepted the idea that I just wouldn't be close with some of my siblings, especially my only sister. We just couldn't understand each other.
What a mess my life was.
In the Beatitudes Jesus says: "Bless it are the poor in spirit." Meaning; those who are needy. Those who are so weak they have to rely on God for EVERYTHING. I had definitely gotten to the end of myself and the beginning of leaning on Christ. I was most certainly poor in spirit... heck, I barely even had any spirit left! But where else can you turn but to God. And so I did. I relied on Christ to get me through every day, one step at a time. And things got better!
Fast-forward four years or so and here I am today. I confess I am not as needy or poor in spirit which means I don't always make enough time for God and that certainly needs work. But my life is rich and full. Instead of feeling alone I am surrounded by the love of my husband, daughter, and both of our sweet families. I have good and or wonderful relationships with most of my family, and my sister and I have never been closer! We spend most of every week together and our children love each other! We are going through so many similar situations in life we just "Get it"
Sometimes my current life feels messy. When my husband is burning the candle at both ends and starts to feel weary and or discouraged, which makes me sad, not to mention makes for long Mommy Days for me. My house isn't always clean, the laundry isn't always done. My health isn't where I'd like for it to be and while I'm in no real danger, my health issues are certainly inconvenient and therefore messying up my life!
But I remember the Bible says trials produce perseverance and out of that comes many valuable things.
There is a song by Plumb that seems to go along with all of this. It's called Beautiful History. And it's basically talking about how even all the hard and crummy things in life that we go through are adding to the richness and fullness of our life's story. Our soon to be history or legacy, and God is the supreme author and knows what He's doing.
I am encouraged. And God is reminding me when I come to messes today that He's been in every mess of my yesterday and brought beauty from them all, and will be there when I face messes tomorrow and thereafter to work some kind of beautiful goodness out of the mess.
Thanks God.
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