This past week has been such a roller coaster for me that my mind had a hard time grasping it as a whole.
My life right now is very busy... or rather, full of many different things, good and rather unpleasant.
This previous week God has shown me, and taught me SO much. I feel like I have grown, but as we all know, growing doesn't happen without some discomfort.
Some of the things in my life that I feel God is using as a growing opportunity for me is uncertainty in general.
We're moving this coming weekend to a house I've never seen in a neighborhood I'm not familiar with where I don't know how to get to work.
We're only staying there for 8 weeks until we move again to our new house where I will be until I get married. (Whenever that is.)
Secondly, there are some relationships in my life that have been less than smooth lately. I've had to remind myself that my facus and the reason for everything I do is Christ. Relationships aren't easy because people are sinful and we have to remember to look to Christ and examine ourselves as well as imitate Christ in how we relate to and treat others. This too has been a very difficult thing for me this week.
Work is another place where uncertainty lives. My schedule now consists of 30-40 hours a week and is fairly unpredictable. I often get phone calls from my boss early in the morning asking me if I'd like to come in early.
I never quite know how my day will go, who I will be working with and what mood they'll be in.
Lately I've come to realize that I work with only women (Except Brian, the co-owner with his wife) who are all working in a high stress, loud, and messy invironment, several of which could be having that horrible week in the month that makes them absolutely ridiculous to work with, and on top of that when anyone, child or worker, gets sick, you know there will soon be a wave of grumpy workers who don't feel well but can't afford to take time off.
So, we've talked of Packing, well, the process of moving, which includes packing, and we've gone over problems, working and relationship.
Now I want to discuss peace.
See, through these challenges and issues, I feel as though my faith has been challenged. I've had to preach the gospel to myself, remind myself that my worth and my life are in God and my purpose is for Him despite, where I live, what I do for a living, and who I'm with. But a lot of the peace God has granted me this week has been through the reminder that, while all that is true, it's okay for me to have a hard time, to struggle with difficult things, and to say that I don't like this and it's not fun! There's nothing wrong with that!
I've learned how to really pour my heart out to God, how to redirect my steps and complete focus (With His help of course.) and how to "Take every thought captive."
And through this VERY difficult and very LONG week, I feel like I have grown, and like much of the weight I was holding has been lifted.
I feel content, blessed, and at peace because I have a God who loves me, calls me his daughter, and loves me even when I'm angry, weary, ungrateful, or fall into sin.
I'm incredibly blessed and grateful for a Christ like family who is always here for me, always encouraging, who loves me and wants the best for me, and who cares enough to speak into my life.
I am so grateful that God has found a way to take my anxious way of thinking about life's challenges and turned it into an adventurous way of thinking. To see things as a new and ecxiting journey, a challenge to overcome, an obstacle waiting to be conquered not through my strength but the strength of Jesus Christ who saved me.
How cool is that?!
I pray that God would grant the same kind of peace and thought process to those around me and in similar circumstances.
If you're reading this, I pray this for you, and I pray that God would pour out many wonderful blessings upon your week.
Happy Sunday!
